Sad, tentative and sick.
I haven't showered in days. I don't care.
I feel like hell and it sucks.
This Pema Chodron quote is resonating,
"When we start to meditate or to work
with any kind of spiritual discipline,
we often think that somehow we're
going to improve, which is a subtle
aggression against who we really are.
...Meditation practice isn't about
trying to throw ourselves away
and become something better.
It's about befriending who we are already."